Jan 2000

So my second bash at the 16 mile run and it was tough, really tough. Im not sure why it was so much harder then the first, perhaps it was the adrenaline and excitment of the former that made it easier, or maybe the naievity of it being easier the second time around,........it was anything but.

Another first, apart from experiencing really 'heavy legs' for the last hour [ a 3 hour run in total ] and wicked blisters, but i actually experienced a fair amount of negative feelings whilst running.

All of a sudden i was battling not only with the distance and the physical aspect of this route but more seriously, was the doubt which I was now experiencing. I am beginning to understand that not only will this be physically demanding but that i now have a whole new battle , and this one is going on in my head. Doubts about whether id 'make it all the way home', I could hear myself thinking 'just give up and walk a little', and 'jees my legs are heavy'. If this wasnt enough - stopping and starting again at Edgeware traffic lights were tourture !

But alas,
Before this entry becomes a little too negative, i did actually finished it without resting and shaved off 15 mins from last weeks time ! [i made it home and soaked in a hot bath for a long long time.]